well love nearly a year now since i said goodbye to you, two days to go the 20th and i came into sobell and sat with you until your death on 31st. how i wish everyone could have seen what i went through especially your family, watching you die was the hardest thing i have ever had to do, and to watch you my beautiful man pass away infront of me no one will know the pain..... it was as we wanted you wanted no one else around and i am so glad that i was able to do it all by myself. I pray that those who kept their distance at all times do feel something, i know you were mad and said.... Sod em all sweetheart... at their reaction to everything. But one thing for certain you were loved most of all by me your loving wife and your children. life is unbearable without you honey. grace xxxxx